My Mistake

Mistake that became my shadow 

I would never know the truth or answer,

If someone never tell me

Telling me how ridiculous it was for my undo mistake 

I would never know that the mistake would hurt so much 

Not for others but also myself

I always thought of sincerely 

But I think I'm wrong 

"Sincere" that I brought to others was pain and hurt 

Recalling on those days, had became one of my nightmare 

I could not accepted nor thought of it 

It was my darkest side I ever had in my life 

And, because of the mistake I could face it for the moment 

The pain that I never aspect 

The hurt that I had created 

All those ridiculous move making me to be shameful 

Somehow

I tried to imagine how things work at that time

I also wonder how others thought of me 

How others get through with me

There's too many questions that do not have sufficient answers

Those questions can only deeply bury in no where.  

                                                                                                                         
     [to be continue]