Learn from your action

Every strike you had made, every failure you had face, every hurt you had encountered, will always and never conclude you as a failure person. The hard work that you are paying will go for a price. If you did not succeed today and somehow, others did not see the value of yourself that you are having then just walk away and never look back. Someday, some where else, I believed there will be someone else that appreciate it. Dream should never be burn out, because that is the only thing that gonna to help you to succeed in the future. The feeling of pain, hurt and fear will makes you grow and yet always remember the damn lesson. Every strike, every investment is not about money, not about winning or losing, but is more about being success. How to be success when everyone are criticizing and having irony talk about you. Who cares? Let it be, move on and have faith on yourself.  Believe and make the dream to be real, improve what you had missed and magnified yourself to be strong. Today, I am not that good nor clover as you all; but i will keep learning and improve. 

Things that I should fix during Spring breaks

After all the busy studying life, this is the right time to have a short break and also reassembling every single mistake that I had did for pass few month. 

I had been over underestimating myself on my studies especially Chemistry. 

It's always a heartbreaking whenever I had the results. 

Over and over again, I told myself to be focus, pay full attention but I failed to. 

What's wrong with me? 

I wish i could had that answer for myself.

And right now, I need to figure out solutions that I'm able to fix those messed within a month. 

A week of break, might have help and beforehand I just need a three days break to enjoy, play and take a rest. 

After that, it will be the time to settle down and start preparing for the next exams and also finals. 

What a complicated feelings I ever had after years. 

Feelings that couldn't be expressed by words 

Aghhh... 

Whatever...

Life's always complicated, isn't ?

A promise to myself 

" Not to forget whatever you had started with, just keep going and stay strong on track" 

不被看好的决定

很多人问我，

“2015，你的愿望是啥？” 

心里默默的想 

”除了想要安稳的过日子，我想要一番美好的事业”

也有很多身边的朋友，一个接一个的毕业 而我还在陶醉在求学当中。
或许，我真有病吧！
我足足浪费三年7个月的求学时光，那时候的我，除了吃喝玩乐就是浪费钱。
那时候，我只能用俩字来形容自己 “无知” “天真” “白目”
直到来到美国，我才真正的开始学习 认真的读书。
所谓的钱财，对我来说真的实在太重要了。
去年，又因为家变 差点就因财源关系 差点继续不了。
庆幸吧！
经历了这么多事情后，2015的第一天开始，我就不停的问自己

“我真正想要的是什么？”

每天都反复的在想同样的问题。
直到前几天吃饭的时候，一个灵感让我想透了一些事情
而，我也从中有了这个决定。
两年后，美国毕业就会直奔中国继续深造中医学。
我的二十至三十岁或许都与学业渡过吧！
我想要的工作不是单单在实验室里呆着研究，然后简单的过日子。
那种生活太过于单调了～
我想要的事业是大企业，而且得和妈的生意有关之外还得一我的兴趣为主。
所以，2015
我告诉我自己 “再给自己5年的时间完成我的学业，其中在中国的学费会半工半读”因为我想要累积经验和市场打交道。
市场，社会的厌恶一面我还没真正见识到。
所以，2年后 也是时候见识一下了。

很多时候 的无可奈何

经历了5个月的颠倒忙碌的生活，我的心和体肤真的禁不起再大挫折了！

说真的2014的下半学期真的是我人生中经历最悲惨，最倒霉的日子了。

那段时间让我认识到所谓的“霸道和野蛮” 也就是传说中的黑人

回想起，从一开始我就做错了选择而我唯一能的做的将错就错。

直到一切得以律师来解决。

我的人生真的精彩呀！

从没想过有一天我得找上律师。

那个程序真的是我人生中的第一次，也从中学习了不少。

这段时间里，我想了很多。

现在的生活多半是忙碌，而以前是潇洒

那种无忧无虑，自以为是的我逐渐的消失。

很多时候，很多事情得深谋远虑，不再以轻浮的心态对待。

或许这是我人生中的必经阶段吧！

也是我第一次，一个人面对，思考这类的难题。

或许我该说，“我还没准备好” 

生活已经够累了，但生活的繁碎事情和经历足以弄垮一个人的生心，不是吗？ 

2015 羊年，新的开始

今年我许下的愿望是这么多年以来最简单不过了～

那就是， 

我想要平静安稳的过日子。

真心的不想再遇到除了学业以外的难题。

太多的无可奈何真的不是好事。

因为我不想那么快的理智上”成长“ 

虽说年纪也不少，也快步入25了 但毕竟我想要拥有着21/22 的时光。

一个人步入 不同的年纪 心声里 或许会改变 

但， 性格和习惯永远存在 

不是吗？