The Loss

Nov 30 2013, black day of the month because we all loss him, Paul Walker.

Legend of the car race since 2001, playing the role of Brian O' Conner in Fast & Furious.

Yet, everything gonna to be different since then.

The moment i saw the news it was really a huge strike ever.

Only two celebrities that got me down.

Wong Ka Kui, Paul Wong dead on June 30 1993 and now we loss Paul Walker one the Nov 30 twenty years after Paul Wong.

A sudden strike and tragic news before the end of 2013.

I really wish that's just a sense of rumor 

Somehow, God just playing a trick with us.

All the fans of him got heartbroken once the news was confirmed.

I still can't believed it,

just like i'm still dreaming.

You know, how much it hurts although he's just my favor actor

I did cry the moment i hear about the news'

Barely lose of control of myself

The sadness can be only buried inside my heart 

Dec 13 will be his last movie left for all of his fans,

Paul Walker, rest in peace 

and I believed your work left for us will always remain as what it was.

The Image

I'm not God but myself .

Sometimes, i'm lost nowhere 

Sometime, life can be reckless, hopeless, sad , disappointed

But,

if we're being optimistic 

Life will be fun, happy and meaningful. 

I just need someones' to enlighten me 

Telling and showing me the light, where i'm suppose to be.

I know, 

right now i'm not who i'm

Something is still missing 

And, what i need is explore myself to find out 

The fire will start to glow once the time is right

And, yet that will be the time i find myself.

The years and days before,

I blamed everything

I blamed on results, lecturer, friends, families but NOT myself.

That moment, i knew i was lost.

Somehow, I'm being too arrogant and tenacious on something and focusing more on the pre-surface.

I knew, life was never easy for everyone.

But, still I insisted with what I thought at first.

Nobody can changed it tho.

For now, i'm willing to accept whatever advise, comment from others.

The goal of mine was to learn as much as i could.

I'm willing to pay for the price and wanted to have a glory reputation

I want to earn my first goal before 30.

I see the image of what i wanted the most in the future.

I know what i'm going to focus on

And, I just need to brave myself and learn to be confidence

No more admiring on others.

For friendships, i will just take it easy.

No pressure on friendships

Journey is mine, not theirs.

So, why should I bother so much on friendships when it's no worthy?

Just be smart and learn.

Complaining all over the f* status at facebook sometime just got me so annoyed.

I'm not proud of myself but it's really the time for them to think about it.

From what i had seen was they were just the same as my past.

Be mature, please.

Think deeper and have a more wider images around the world.

莫名的伤感

这几天不懂怎么了，莫名的伤感~

是因为音乐还是人事物让我感觉到这种莫名的伤感！

曾经以为我拥有一颗冷酷，坚强的内心

原来，一切都变了！

只从经历了某些事情长智的时候，我就变了

变得不再是我，不再是以前的我。

开始变得多虑，顾虑，焦急

同时，也让我领悟一些道理

或许，是因为这样 我变得多虑 觉得我的生涯有点可悲

每当我想找人聊聊天的时候，往往哪里都是空无一人的

与妈咪谈心的时间已超以与朋友谈心了。

不懂是我人缘差 还是 我身边的朋友都只不过是过路人

有时侯想起，眼眶泪水就在里面打滚

真让我心疼，失望

我的友谊生涯-可悲