逃避和惊喜

逃避 

这两个词不知不觉地介入了我的生活 

我也不知道从何开始 我开始逃避某些事情 

令我想要逃避的是 

成绩 

成绩 本来就没那么重要 

但 

不知道从何开始 

我开始害怕了

开始承受不了 

经不起失败了

内心的恐惧 

一天一天的增加 

最后，
心痒痒 
手多多
勇气少少 
查看了成绩 
不可思议 ！！！
成绩竟然出乎我意料中 
那颗心总算放下 
开心死
太久太久了 
我都快忘记那感觉
奋斗后的成功带来的喜悦 

虽然，我没付出99% 
但，至少比以前付出的多吧！
现在，
成绩不单是 及格那么简单
 而且也应该要榜上有名吧！

My Mistake

Mistake that became my shadow 

I would never know the truth or answer,

If someone never tell me

Telling me how ridiculous it was for my undo mistake 

I would never know that the mistake would hurt so much 

Not for others but also myself

I always thought of sincerely 

But I think I'm wrong 

"Sincere" that I brought to others was pain and hurt 

Recalling on those days, had became one of my nightmare 

I could not accepted nor thought of it 

It was my darkest side I ever had in my life 

And, because of the mistake I could face it for the moment 

The pain that I never aspect 

The hurt that I had created 

All those ridiculous move making me to be shameful 

Somehow

I tried to imagine how things work at that time

I also wonder how others thought of me 

How others get through with me

There's too many questions that do not have sufficient answers

Those questions can only deeply bury in no where.  

                                                                                                                         
     [to be continue]

原来 是这样

今天我真的让我感到丢脸啊！

真好没面子去见和回去了呀！

有千千万万的 “原来” 
“原来” 这样 
“原来” 那样
“原来” 那么的好笑 
“原来” 那么的可悲
“原来” 以前真的那么无知，幼稚，愚蠢 

真的不懂该从说起
简约吧！
原来，我给身边的人的印象是那么的差
而，我还不知道  真是丢脸死
我真的太天真，无知和自大
难怪我的人缘那么的差 

或许，曾经
我身边的朋友议论过我
而我 却不知道 
不知道自己的错误
不知道自己带给别人压力 
不知道自己带给别人无奈 

我真的不懂该怎么说自己的过错 
因为错得太离谱了
而在这过错的过程里
却没有人愿意去纠正 
相反的，
这不但包庇了我，宠坏了我 
若 
没来美国的话，
我真的不懂这些“无聊”“愚蠢”的事
我都干尽了                                                                                                    [继续]

Never Said Easy

Fall in love with "Historic" 
I would never said history is easy 
Although I'm interested with it
I learned a lot in history 
And, getting through the Middle East I get to know more about politic and what's happening right now between United States and Iran.
Middle East had been an issues for many years 
(If i did not messed up) around 60 years ?
After the WWII, the break of the Ottoman empire
Israel and Iran can be easily seen from the news today

Every country had their history
And, that's depends on how timeline and peoples
For instance, Africa (Rwanda) 
Within 3 months, 1 millions of the minor population being killed 
Wars in European country had huge amount of innocent people being killed in the war 
And, refugees too
Besides, Malaysia had the most indescribable history
May 13 1969, Chinese being killed 
And, declared the state into national emergency
Now, UMNO and MCA is trying to threaten the nations for the repeating of May 13
They did not know that 44 years later this would never be the same 
May 13 incident would never repeat 
Young generations are no longer the same 
We have our own thought
We are not control or easily compel 
We are standing against the unfair and racist UMNO fighting for our rights
We will never betray our dignity and future because of your F* money 

4 days later, Malaysia will create a new history again
If the opposite parties wins most of the seats 
Then, Malaysia will have a brand new government 
What if, the opposite parties lose 
Then, We just have to bless and pray harder
It's not EASY to win the election when UMNO/ BN is playing dirty tricks 
Just hope that GOD sees it 
Wishing the GOD will stand at the right side, blessing for us.
I really wish the GE13 would be a good beginning for Malaysia for changing the government.